My children have made me a joker, an actor, a reader, a writer, a baker, a humorist and a thinker

Motherhood brought different colors in my life, the colors I never thought existed within me. My different shades exposed themselves as scaffolding of the sweet onion in our kitchen. Through the nine months ordeal of carrying another human being inside to childbirth and raising it, it has all helped me explore my own inner self. I transformed from a moody introvert into a dreamer, a lover, a baker, a dancer, a singer and an actor.

First, motherhood turned me into a good lover.  Before becoming mother, I did not know one human being is capable of loving another human so unconditionally and ready to sacrifice everything from personal freedom, career and your body for that cause. 

Motherhood exposed my selfless love for my children. A career-oriented woman became a mother. Now I am ready to leave behind anything to spend time with my children.  I started to become the lover of another human being since the foetus started kicking and gnawing me from inside. I realized how hard it is to produce a human being.

Since being a mother I immensely respect human beings. I feel that a human being is composed of not only flesh, bones, blood and veins, but also dreams, emotions and love. 

The children taught me to live for and cherish every moment. Small things like reading books, cooking or strolling around started making me happy.  My children have made me a joker, an actor, a reader, a writer, a baker, a humorist, a thinker, an artist, a good wife and a good mother. 

Before I was mother, I cooked as quickly as possible, threw everything together as I had always so many things left to be done. Now with children’s taste bud rising, I cook with my heart and flavour it with love. 
Born rebel, I always challenged my mother’s idea of life. I planned my life in different compartments: graduating from the university, getting job and starting the family. I had planned it all. Good career and two beautiful children before I was 35 was my mission. As a child in school, I was good student. I was regarded good daughter because I did what I was supposed to do: went to school, did my homework, helped my mom in kitchen and respected my elders. But there was some void inside me. I was restless inside. I didn’t know what I was looking for and what I wanted from my life. 

Motherhood has filled that void. Even though it was the toughest one, I find it more rewarding and fulfilling than any one. I know there is no winning in journey of motherhood. One has to go through arduous task of carrying developing human being inside you for nine months, then you have tiny human in your lap, whose needs and wants always exceeds yours. Few months after bring bundle of joys. There is no time new mother can sleep—for every hour—whether its night or day—you will be breast feeding. But you like it all, you love it all.

Motherhood changed my body, left two beautiful scars in my tummy and demanded never ending devotion for raising two children. But despite all these, I learnt so many things of life from being mother. Lots of things in my life have changed: my house and my body (I have two caesarean section scars on my body). But it helped me discover my true being, my essence.

I learnt to be patient. One can’t shorten those months of carrying another human being inside you. Constant demanding of motherhood has made me more patient. I learnt to let it go in life.  I am not into any power struggles with anybody now. 

It is said children don’t come to this world with manuals. As an adult, I have to have patience as they assert their existence in this world. As they are pushing their boundaries and claiming the world from new perspectives, I learnt to step little back. I always equated success in life with making money and earning degrees. Motherhood completely changed my perspectives. Even baking cakes or as simple as decorating fruit trays bring lots of joy to me and my kids. I am spellbound by my capacity to love another human being.
My children have made me mature. I became more confident in life. I am content with myself. I regained peace after I started raising them.  The humanizing effect motherhood had on me is simply unexplainable. When I hear some women say they sacrificed so much in life to become a mother, I feel lucky that I gained so much from being a mother.

 
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