I often hear that aim is a drive to live and achieve success in life. The more I become knowledgeable, the more I am confused, incapable, inarticulate, and weak to reveal my aim. Unlike a child who could easily speak that s/he wants to become doctor, or engineer, or pilot, or a nurse, I do not know and cannot speak about my aim. I do not have drive, but you see, my life is not paused.
When I was a child, I also used to say that I want to become a doctor. My parents used to ask what will you do being a doctor. The simple answer to that question used to be I will treat patients and love you very much. What an innocent and lovely time that was! At this very moment, although not my aim, if I say that I want to become a doctor then will that same laughter come out from my parents’ mouths? Of course not.
It is my life, so I am granted freedom to choose which way to go and what to become. I do have right to set my own aim, either achievable or unachievable, but that’s a challenge merely a boon. To escape it, sometimes, I think my parents should set an aim for me. How easy would it be when you are commanded what to do next? I would have to do just a few things rather than wandering here and there, trying and failing multiple times, thinking the best solution to hit the spot. However, my inner-I does not allow myself to ask for an aim to my parents. If I did so then would I be satisfied at the end?
I do have my whole life ahead of me. I do have time to experience, feel, enjoy, learn, dream, involve, expose, and to set an aim. So why should I be frustrated so early? Why should I ask for an aim to my parents? At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter whether you reach your aim or not, but what matters is if you discovered that aim and tried to reach to it. I have activated a self-drive mode and I am experiencing, feeling, enjoying, dreaming, and getting exposed to different fields. What about you?