"The neighbor and the five youths starting raping me turn by turn. There was no point fighting back. I was used like an object. I was gang raped," she said.
The incident which took place four months ago is still very fresh in her mind. "When I recall it I often think of committing suicide," she told Republica.
Those involved in the gang rape have already been sent to jail but Mankali has not been able to feel any sense of closure. She keeps suffering from mental disorder and talks to herself during nights.
"Thanks to the medicine, I keep calm for a while," said Manakali, who regularly takes anti-depressants.
"Sometimes I have a severe headache, and soon my head whirls. Sometimes I faint," she said.
Her husband left her six years ago and she has been taking care of her three children by herself since. She always thought parting from her husband was the biggest tragedy of her life. "But the worse was yet to come. And now I really feel like committing suicide," she said.
All the rape-victim women like her go on to develop mental disorders. They mainly contemplate suicide, according to psychologists and doctors treating them.
A five-year-old girl in Tulsipur, who was raped after being abducted, cannot sleep soundly at night. "She wakes up suddenly in the middle of the night and starts weeping," said Radha Poudel, a nurse who is providing psychosocial counseling to her and other rape victims in the district.
The girl was enticed with some chocolate and abducted before being raped. She is showing some improvement through the counseling, Poudel added
Reports of rapes in Dang district show a rising trend. Some three to four rapes are reported in a month. The victims, who range in age from three to 65 years, suffer from psychosocial problems.
The victims feel demoralized by society, according to nurse Poudel. The fear of social exclusion and rejection leads to psychological problems.
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