Afaf Shamim

What could you possibly see when you sit there and stare back at me? The porcelain mask that's painted perfectly, or what's truly underneath?

I tear apart often just to feel;   to feel the pain that should be real. When deep in the darkness my heart still sees;

The girl who always smiled and frowned The girl who always laughed and cried The girl who was determined Finally gave up and died

A heart is torn open, A love is broken, A life is empty, With few words spoken.

Feeling tense, it's so hard to breathe As every night I cry so desperately To put the hurt in the past As I walk out of my room, my heart beats so fast. You shouldn't feel so scared to talk So scared to joke, or so scared to walk.

Love, is a word most people find magical and full of care. For me, this word has no meaning. Simply, because I really don’t believe in the word, love. This word itself holds no meaning for me. I believe it is just a fantasy. Just like fake fairy tales that people believe in.

Another day I walk into our school... As I enter my classroom, I think of you... I sat silently into my chair with noticeable gloom... I try to smile, laugh like before, But it's not the same when I'm With You...

Smile is mine But the reason is you Life is mine But the fun is you Sorrow is mine But the relief is you

I have a pain so deep you'll never see I locked it away and hid the key. If I ever really could share it You wouldn't look at me the same I swear it.