NEW YORK, Nov 17: Before he pulled the trigger that ended the life of rock icon John Lennon nearly 38 years ago, his killer remembers being in a “tug of war” with himself over what he was about to do, and even praying for a way out of carrying out his plan.

NEW YORK, Aug 24: John Lennon's killer has been denied parole for a 10th time and will remain behind bars for at least two more years.