Scared of meeting you again

I have closed my door and windows,
It’s dark with only few rays of light,
I am scared that I will get hurt,
And I can’t get away from your thoughts if I meet you.

I made a mistake of loving you,
Despite you told me that I am only your friend
I have hurt myself and hurt you as well
And now I can’t erase those days when we first met.

I wish I had been somewhere
Thinking how our life would have been
If we hadn’t met then,
Now, the scene has almost cooled 
Yet the affection has still remained the same.

I am running away from you, and I am scared
Scared of meeting you again and to experience the same pain
It took me months to get away from your thoughts
Though some memories are still there.